48 hours left...

Time has drawn near... Soon everything will be back to where it was. Everything is going smoothly as i planned, she didn't suspect anything. Just one more thing, I'm still thinking on how should i end it for them. What kind of weapon should i use..? should i just cut them to pieces, slit their throat? shot 'em maybe? but I've never use a gun before. Or maybe i should just drug both of them...
*sigh*
Usually Alicia will do the deciding for me. I'm always not good in making decisions. But one thing for sure, I'll make it slow and painful as possible for the cuts they've left in me.

72 hours left...

I've been doing a lot of thinking whether should i proceed with this or not and then she made it clear for me.
I should.
Just the other night we had a big fight and she demanded for a divorce.
I didn't blame her...
This is all that bastard's fault, he clouded her mind. That bastard was just using my alicia for his benefit.
I won't let that bastard used alicia like that anymore.
A guy like that shouldn't be alive, and once I'm done with that bastard. Alicia and i will be together just like before and I'll make sure she won't cheat on me again. Well... I'm sure she won't. Dead people can't cheat right.

168 hours left...

Hard for me to swallow this bloody truth. I was hoping i was wrong. How could she do this to me...
I loved her so much...
I sacrifice a lot for her...
Where did i go wrong...
We were so happy back then but why, what went wrong...
Were even planning on having kids and suddenly this...
Why alicia, I can't accept all this. your mine and mine alone.
Just you wait alicia, were gonna be together again soon.
Just you wait....

240 hours left...

BUSTED.

264 hours left...

It's been a while since I write. My grandmother passed away about a week ago. Countless thoughts are going through my head, so many things to do, so little time, but here I am, staying still, in my house, in this room, thinking about the same sick thing over and over again. We didn't even have the time to talk. We act like strangers living under one roof. She didn't even have the courtesy to show up to the funeral. I feel like an idiot, knowing that she was out there, linger around with God knows what she is doing. Seems like she is so busy with her own love life.

She has been avoiding me, but would I not. Supposed to follow her throughout her days a week earlier, but the plans had to be put aside as grandma was priority that time. Tomorrow will be the best time to start the very beginning of the plan that I have. It's time for me to know who's the bastard that has been sleeping with my wife all these while. I just can't wait any longer.

600 hours left...

time is ticking, long have i been silent and i have had enough. you slip me away and made me this way. its about time

tomorrow will be the day where truth will speak clearly from my actions of tracking her. the truth will reveal and my plan of vanishing you will soon be organize.

if you want it that way then fine with me. you forced me so my dearest love.since i cant have you all by myself then no one in this world can. don't blame me dear god, i'm sorry

624 hours left...

it doesn't feel like we are living under the same roof anymore.
we go to work in the morning, come home and she went straight to bed.
and the worst part is we don't have sex anymore.
she has been turning me down.
it got me thinking who the fuck she is seeing.
is he better than me?

this is just too difficult to me to swallow..
it keeps getting into me i have to find out who is this bastard

648 hours left...

sleepless night it was for me. My mood raises as i thought i might feel slightly reasonable with her on what happened just now but hell no.
The reality of life soon kicked in as i felt the silence of the room once used to be so alive. But now its just a nightmare for me, insomnia is what killing me. betrayal and felt of anger is too much to bear.

672 hours left...

I bought a bouquet of red roses for my wife today on my way home from work.
When i got home she wasn't there.
I called her cellphone asking where is she, she said she's with her girlfriends.
I know she's lying...
I know that she's with that bastard...

Just a matter of time love, soon you'll be mine alone.

696 hours left...

Here I am sitting in my room waiting for my wife to come home.
Love has taken it's toll on me.
Negative thoughts are playing through my mind.
She might be shagging that bastard right now.

She's back.
I better go now, before she suspects anything.
My sexual urges is killing me.
God knows what I am going to do to her tonight.

720 hours left...

Did it ever occur to you to have the desire to kill someone you've been married to for 13 bloody years, 9 bloody months, 21 bloody days and 11 bloody hours..?
Just when i thought i was the happiest man on earth GOD has proved me wrong...

I've done countless things to make this work out for both of us.
I love her so much, there's not one word that could describe how much i love her.
If i can't have her all to myself, then nobody will...

In 720 hours, you will rest in peace, my love...

As the song says; "Too much love will kill you" by Queen